Life is Amazing

As many times as that has been said it's still true. When one plants a little thought, then takes care of it as a gardner does her seedlings, that thought flourishes and takes a 3D form outside of our minds. That's why dreams can and do come true. What's working for me is the connection between Spirit, resting, listening , action and the dance between them. It's not the achievement of the goal that is desired because once we have it we always want something else. The goal is an inspiration for the journey that makes for the adventure of life. I'm finally beginning to settle into the process, the journey.

consistently: constantly adhering to the same course

It has been awhile since I wrote a little something, that is why I chose the wrod consistently as my title. I will be writing consistently. If one doesn't write then they are not a writer but more of a dreamer. I have a lot of little actions I'm taking on a daily basis because my dreams will come true faster if I spend some minutes on things instead of no minutes. I'm keeping a journal of where I spend my time at the end of two weeks I tally it up and allocate time to the appropriate places, it sounds like a good idea, I hope it helps with the frivolous time spending.

Of course I'm also wanting to end frivolous money spending as well. Actually I spend a lot of money on food so I shall learn to become a better cook and spend my money in food luxury. I love those words luxury and luxurious and hope to have a life filled with them. I think it's a luxury to have the time to write these silly musings. I'm thinking of Jane Austen's vocabulary within her musings and know I aspire to have a much greater fluidity with vocabulary.

I have a mentor that speaks many languages. She's a poet and lives like one too as I continue with this prolific de-cluttering space emerges to live life poetically. May I be able to speak three languages and use them often. Thank You

Love Is All There Is

Loving myself by strengthening my connection with Great Spirit. When we do what we're supposed to be doing it all works out so well. How do we know what that is? By listening. Self referral and a connection with Great Spirit will always guide us in the direction that's best for us. It takes a lot of strength and courage to follow the directions. Risking the disapproval of others is another part of the equation, after listening then how do we say no to others and yes to ourselves? Ah, yes, the famous "Just Do It" slogan comes to mind. I've been doing it more and more and the quality of my life is improving. I have mush less stuff as I continue to de-clutter but I have a more solid base. Yesterday I read in Tracey McBride's book Frugal Luxuries that it's important to say no to ourselves and I loved that because the concept crystalized for me. To live in truth with oneself one must know how to say no like a loving parent. No to this means I can say yes to that and I'll have energy for the yeses that will be for my highest good. It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm thrilled, I love birthdays, especially mine. Thank You

It appears that I must do what I know is right. Yesterday, I became very angry and immature because the job I'm applying for this Tuesday isn't the dream job I thought it would be. And again I'm in the place of living my life the way I know is right.

Apparently I can't give myself this full freedom but I can give myself this birthday gift for one year.

Starting today I live life in the present.
I use the tools I have to live in love, pleasure and joy.

This is my life and I deserve it.

YIPEEE!!!!!!!

I feel better now, my man just gave me a kiss, after I spilled my feelings. In the upcoming week I have time to think, work and take actions. I'm flowing down stream again.

I'm so bleepin' angry.

Again- I'm here at the exact bleepin' place again. I go 'round and 'round and always end up here.

...so I was having a fabulous weekend and spectacular Sunday morning. I was experiencing many serendipitous occurrences and I was quite joyful and then I decided to research a little about the job that I'm applying for this Tuesday.

And It's not my magical, helpful big salaried job with my office and big desk. It's a lower paying under appreciated job. i still want it for a little part time money but again I'm shown that I must do the ding dong entrepreneurial thing. I must stop fighting my life, divine guidance and living less than. AAAACK

I'm so scared. I'm not sure exactly what it is but this week my daughter is in camp from 10-3 so I get some time to think and do. I'm looking forward to it as I do have some ideas of what it should feel like and I have all of the money group suggestions and notes so I'll keep on that.

If you would surround me in a rainbow and I think of me succeeding then I will receive that as fuel and use it for my nourishment.

I don't know if I can do this. Okay that's not true, I can, I will. First step first. I'm in the cauldron again a (freekin') gain.

I Grow Up Now

My friend asked me about my decluttering last night and what was the point. In responding and then sleeping on it I realized that this is the time of Lammas, the first pruning. What I'm am doing then is some pruning, honing in on what I don't what so that what I do want can flourish. It is deciding between the things I want and fine tuning it to what I really want.
When I awoke I also realized that I am to be gentle and patient with myself. I was frustrated because I didn't finish the decuttering in one day. hehehh

Wants: health, spirituality, slowness, presence, love, joy, creativity
Material Wants: a functional and beautiful home ( I think this one is being very helpful in this healing and transitional time) a beautiful and functional car, Grace's tuition paid, travel, and dates with my man, clothes and good toiletries and good food and the means to take care of us all. Honestly, I think it's all happening and I'm grateful and celebratory.

I will allow this in my life as well as for all the people of the planet. As I work toward this I assist others and we will all have our soul's needs and wants met.

MAY WE CELEBRATE THE INCARNATE, 3D PART OF OUR SELVES TODAY.

July 22 Mary Magdalene Day. May we celebrate our humanness, may we enjoy our bodies and the pleasures of the world. Today is a wonderful day to hug your kids and kiss your mate, eat chocolate covered strawberries and swim naked. May we create with Her as an expression of Great Spirit. Give thanks for your beautiful body living this marvelous experience of life.

aaahk. I was writing a very witty and clever blog when it disappeared, now we'll have to settle for this one. I was just saying how I'm really believing that life is a game to be enjoyed. This attitude has made my life much more enjoyable and sparkly. I'm quite delighted by synchronicity, I always feel a tinkling in my being when I realize I have exactly what I want and wanted. Sometimes it looks a little different so I don't recognize it right away. But after I bought a huge bag of oranges from a freeway vendor I remembered I'd been craving oranges and I just hadn't bought them from the market. This purchase was more exciting and they're delicious.
Perhaps I should change the blog name to Silly Goddess. xooxo

Doritos to Paris

A few weeks ago I began the Weight Watchers food plan, not easy but simple. The fact that food costs points is helping me recover from my money issues as well. The feelings I have and the knowledge I'm gaining mirror my experience with the energetics of money. The other day I ate 12 Doritos for 4 pts. I must say that it wasn't worth it, perhaps 1-3 Doritos could have done the trick but I'm not sure. This correlated to the realization that I often spend money where I don't want to spend it but I'm lazy to fix a meal, or I don't feel deserving, sometimes I'm trying to fill the void of not enoughness and the like.

Owning that I'm old enough to be an adult and acting with self-loving, respectful and mature actions I realize that it is not in my best interest to eat everything I want all at once or does it serve my self-love to buy things that I do not want. Time is my friend. I want to create, love and travel and have one beautiful artist's home. I have the power to hone my energy to that which I want.

I don't want Doritos I want Paris.

Money Energetics: Sometimes when we have too much money we don't want to share it because we're afraid we won't get any more, we feel entitled to our money, we worked hard for it etc...Sometimes when we don't have much money we don't want to share it because we're afraid we won't get any more, we feel entitled to being in poverty, we feel we don't have anything to share etc... I've been working with the 10/10/80 principle and I am more generous and prosperous than before. Take the first 10% of any income and donate it, put the second 10% in a prudent reserve and live on the last 80%. If it's too hard at first then start with smaller amounts and work your way toward this goal. You will feel more love and money flowing in and out of your life. I share with you lots of love in this moment.

Recently I received an email from Abraham reminding me to give others their rightness. They reminded me to know the other is right and celebrate it with them, it has been difficult because I too want to be right and when I let go of the rightness I feel so wrong. And I feel through these feelings and melt through right disease to a place of all love.
Avatar and T.B.'s Alice In Wonderland are two extraordinary movies, they were filled with new ideas, love, magic and magnificent artistic expression. These two movies raise one's spirit, bring excellence to an often mediocre world, and filled me with hope. These movies show us the place where we humans appear to be stuck is healing in love. With both of these loved film movies I was saddened and disappointed when in the final moments of the film intense compassion and love were needed they were not given, showing us where humanity is developmentally. Many of us seem to be limited in how much we are willing to forgive. This is most difficult for me and I am being with forgiveness much of the time. May I be forgiven for the harm I have caused, May I forgive myself and May I forgive you. May I love unconditionally, may I be an artistic visionary and actualizer (as so many were in the making of these films) and may I risk living with everything I have to offer. Thank you so very much for making these two movies as they make me feel alive, delighted and ignited.

Going Deeper

Grace and I went to Hollywood and Highland last night for something she wanted to do. It was a tourist's dream. I hadn't been there in the evening for sometime and it smelled like tourists, the lights were sparkling, a fountain dazzled, the clothes shops had amazing artsy clothes. I felt like a tourist and that I had traveled. Ask and it is given. We had a wonderful time. When we came home I took a bath in Epsom salts and the bubble bath from Hotel Les Vielles and it was wonderful. During the bath I remembered that all of my answers lie within me and I need to spend the time there including prayer and mediation.

I must stop chasing of my outside dreams My Smart Car, My home, Glastonbury and being thin and Know that everything is as it should be, I am a magnet Great Spirit is well aware of my dreams and what I want and now I take the time to Create, be in the MM teachings, create new thoughts and love, forgive (my criticisms, my perfectionism) and be in authentic joy.

The letting go is so hard but it's like trying to control another in a relationship. One can't make another want to date them, marry them or love them. Manipulation isn't the way to succeed in any area. I'm taking lots of actions to make my dreams come true and at the same time I must let go and the trusting is sooooo scary.

Good Morning,

There are so many good excuses not to check in. One is I that sometimes I feel timid and don't want to be so open and since it's been such an emotional week I really do just want to curl up and hide. But I went to bed early, around 10:30 or so, and slept in, around 8:00am, did the morning stretches and feel daring so here I write.

Where to start, I don't know, this week had many challenges and I'm definitely a stronger, gentler and more loving person because of them all. Last weekend I heard that I wasn't to attend my spiritual retreat and that I needed to grow up. Neither bit of information was well received. I toyed with the idea that I wouldn't be going on the retreat but didn't believe it in my heart and the notion of growing up, well I'm doing just fine thank you very much.

I finally realized that I need to grow up in the area of money. I love that in the Disney movie "The Princess and the Frog" one of the messages is that to be successful one needs to combine wishing on a star with hard work. The wishing in the star is that connection with GreatSpirit it is our true longing that which brings us joy and the action is the footwork that is needed here on earth. So my footwork here was to say no to the expense of the spiritual retreat and say yes to living below my means. The means are rather small at this time so I'm afraid but I will rise to the learning because once I'm good at living within these means it will be a strong base for living below a higher means. I'm reading Mary Hunt and she explains things quite nicely as you know I also love Robert Scheinfeld's Busting Loose From The Money Game.
thank you

The Scottish Terrier and The Great Dane

There once was a beautiful Great Dane that lived with her family. She had a large yard for playing, daily walks and delicious food, life was good. One day a cute Scottish Terrier came to live with the family, she wasn't there all of the time but enough to be part of the pack. The Great Dane preferred being alone but did like other dogs so she made a special bed for the Scottie, gave her treats and welcomed her into the home. The Scottie was reserved but, from time to time, would engage with the family.

Some time passed and the family moved into a much smaller house. It was a tight fit especially for the Great Dane but she loved her family and was happy to be where they were. The Scottie was there about half of the time too. According to this website http://www.dog-breed-facts.com/Breeds/scottish-terrier.html, the Scottie is brave, alert, proud, confident, loyal and dignified. While friendly and playful as puppies, the mature Scottish Terrier is quite independent and self reliant and can even be quite crusty and stubborn at times. Therefore it is important to start socializing and obedience training the Scottie while it is a puppy and continue through adolescence. Training will be difficult and you will never achieve instant obedience but you can get a reluctant obedience to most commands. Scotties love to play, so make sure you add play and rewards to your training. Scotties seem to think they are large dogs and can be quite feisty toward other dogs, no matter how large. The Scottish Terrier does best with older children. Scotties are aloof from everyone except their immediate family and are not friendly towards strangers. Scotties make good watchdogs. Scottish Terriers do best with experienced owners who have the patience to gently train and bring out the best in this proud breed.

This seemed true to the Great Dane as well. It appeared that something was more difficult for the little Scottie as she didn't look well. She would often be shy and aggressive and at other times she would want to be part of the family but would curl up into a ball. Having had her own litters the Great Dane attempted to love on the Scottie but the Scottie shunned her. Sometimes the little Scottie would pee in an attempt to mark her space. It was uncomfortable to the family and the GD would look on, eventually the GD grew tired of it all and barked a loud no as these puppy like antics needed to stop, for the good of all. In a pack everyone is loved and appreciated. There is room for each one easily and effortlessly.

open

Intimidated at first I decided not to blog again, it was a little frightening to be completely open and honest for all (okay my 2 followers) to see but that's the best way isn't it? To be completely real and honest is how I am present for myself and you. I am working with the Mary Magdalene teachings from Joan Clark and the main one for me this year is forgiveness and the many ways this reveals itself to me. Today was challenging in that I am being asked to forgive and have compassion for someone that I find difficult to be around. Most of the difficulty is from the fact that I too have the traits I don't care for in her and I had been in denial of this fact. So as always the forgiveness and compassion begin with me. I forgive myself for isolating, not trusting and being so afraid of the world that I overcompensate by being controlling and a bit angry. Oh sheesh- Nobody's perfect, I give myself and her a break. Love, forgiveness and compassion mmmm wonderful and I breathe.

Bonjour. We begin.

Disneyland is a healing temple. I derive many spiritual teachings from this magical place. Yesterday was a day of receiving luxury and joy, two elements I'm bringing into my life. The joy came from enjoying children as well as my daughter and a special childhood friend. We laughed for hours, it was brilliant. Some of the luxury was received at dinner when I requested complimentary deserts because we had to evacuate during our meal. We were given three delicious deserts and it was lovely. The first thing one might see is the materialism and commercialism , but by going a little deeper and having presence one can feel divinity in the connection with people, may it be cast members or guests. If divine joy and pleasure are what we are here to do on earth then Disneyland is a gateway to innocent and delightful pleasures.