Going Deeper

Grace and I went to Hollywood and Highland last night for something she wanted to do. It was a tourist's dream. I hadn't been there in the evening for sometime and it smelled like tourists, the lights were sparkling, a fountain dazzled, the clothes shops had amazing artsy clothes. I felt like a tourist and that I had traveled. Ask and it is given. We had a wonderful time. When we came home I took a bath in Epsom salts and the bubble bath from Hotel Les Vielles and it was wonderful. During the bath I remembered that all of my answers lie within me and I need to spend the time there including prayer and mediation.

I must stop chasing of my outside dreams My Smart Car, My home, Glastonbury and being thin and Know that everything is as it should be, I am a magnet Great Spirit is well aware of my dreams and what I want and now I take the time to Create, be in the MM teachings, create new thoughts and love, forgive (my criticisms, my perfectionism) and be in authentic joy.

The letting go is so hard but it's like trying to control another in a relationship. One can't make another want to date them, marry them or love them. Manipulation isn't the way to succeed in any area. I'm taking lots of actions to make my dreams come true and at the same time I must let go and the trusting is sooooo scary.

Good Morning,

There are so many good excuses not to check in. One is I that sometimes I feel timid and don't want to be so open and since it's been such an emotional week I really do just want to curl up and hide. But I went to bed early, around 10:30 or so, and slept in, around 8:00am, did the morning stretches and feel daring so here I write.

Where to start, I don't know, this week had many challenges and I'm definitely a stronger, gentler and more loving person because of them all. Last weekend I heard that I wasn't to attend my spiritual retreat and that I needed to grow up. Neither bit of information was well received. I toyed with the idea that I wouldn't be going on the retreat but didn't believe it in my heart and the notion of growing up, well I'm doing just fine thank you very much.

I finally realized that I need to grow up in the area of money. I love that in the Disney movie "The Princess and the Frog" one of the messages is that to be successful one needs to combine wishing on a star with hard work. The wishing in the star is that connection with GreatSpirit it is our true longing that which brings us joy and the action is the footwork that is needed here on earth. So my footwork here was to say no to the expense of the spiritual retreat and say yes to living below my means. The means are rather small at this time so I'm afraid but I will rise to the learning because once I'm good at living within these means it will be a strong base for living below a higher means. I'm reading Mary Hunt and she explains things quite nicely as you know I also love Robert Scheinfeld's Busting Loose From The Money Game.
thank you

The Scottish Terrier and The Great Dane

There once was a beautiful Great Dane that lived with her family. She had a large yard for playing, daily walks and delicious food, life was good. One day a cute Scottish Terrier came to live with the family, she wasn't there all of the time but enough to be part of the pack. The Great Dane preferred being alone but did like other dogs so she made a special bed for the Scottie, gave her treats and welcomed her into the home. The Scottie was reserved but, from time to time, would engage with the family.

Some time passed and the family moved into a much smaller house. It was a tight fit especially for the Great Dane but she loved her family and was happy to be where they were. The Scottie was there about half of the time too. According to this website http://www.dog-breed-facts.com/Breeds/scottish-terrier.html, the Scottie is brave, alert, proud, confident, loyal and dignified. While friendly and playful as puppies, the mature Scottish Terrier is quite independent and self reliant and can even be quite crusty and stubborn at times. Therefore it is important to start socializing and obedience training the Scottie while it is a puppy and continue through adolescence. Training will be difficult and you will never achieve instant obedience but you can get a reluctant obedience to most commands. Scotties love to play, so make sure you add play and rewards to your training. Scotties seem to think they are large dogs and can be quite feisty toward other dogs, no matter how large. The Scottish Terrier does best with older children. Scotties are aloof from everyone except their immediate family and are not friendly towards strangers. Scotties make good watchdogs. Scottish Terriers do best with experienced owners who have the patience to gently train and bring out the best in this proud breed.

This seemed true to the Great Dane as well. It appeared that something was more difficult for the little Scottie as she didn't look well. She would often be shy and aggressive and at other times she would want to be part of the family but would curl up into a ball. Having had her own litters the Great Dane attempted to love on the Scottie but the Scottie shunned her. Sometimes the little Scottie would pee in an attempt to mark her space. It was uncomfortable to the family and the GD would look on, eventually the GD grew tired of it all and barked a loud no as these puppy like antics needed to stop, for the good of all. In a pack everyone is loved and appreciated. There is room for each one easily and effortlessly.

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Intimidated at first I decided not to blog again, it was a little frightening to be completely open and honest for all (okay my 2 followers) to see but that's the best way isn't it? To be completely real and honest is how I am present for myself and you. I am working with the Mary Magdalene teachings from Joan Clark and the main one for me this year is forgiveness and the many ways this reveals itself to me. Today was challenging in that I am being asked to forgive and have compassion for someone that I find difficult to be around. Most of the difficulty is from the fact that I too have the traits I don't care for in her and I had been in denial of this fact. So as always the forgiveness and compassion begin with me. I forgive myself for isolating, not trusting and being so afraid of the world that I overcompensate by being controlling and a bit angry. Oh sheesh- Nobody's perfect, I give myself and her a break. Love, forgiveness and compassion mmmm wonderful and I breathe.

Bonjour. We begin.

Disneyland is a healing temple. I derive many spiritual teachings from this magical place. Yesterday was a day of receiving luxury and joy, two elements I'm bringing into my life. The joy came from enjoying children as well as my daughter and a special childhood friend. We laughed for hours, it was brilliant. Some of the luxury was received at dinner when I requested complimentary deserts because we had to evacuate during our meal. We were given three delicious deserts and it was lovely. The first thing one might see is the materialism and commercialism , but by going a little deeper and having presence one can feel divinity in the connection with people, may it be cast members or guests. If divine joy and pleasure are what we are here to do on earth then Disneyland is a gateway to innocent and delightful pleasures.