I'm so bleepin' angry.

Again- I'm here at the exact bleepin' place again. I go 'round and 'round and always end up here.

...so I was having a fabulous weekend and spectacular Sunday morning. I was experiencing many serendipitous occurrences and I was quite joyful and then I decided to research a little about the job that I'm applying for this Tuesday.

And It's not my magical, helpful big salaried job with my office and big desk. It's a lower paying under appreciated job. i still want it for a little part time money but again I'm shown that I must do the ding dong entrepreneurial thing. I must stop fighting my life, divine guidance and living less than. AAAACK

I'm so scared. I'm not sure exactly what it is but this week my daughter is in camp from 10-3 so I get some time to think and do. I'm looking forward to it as I do have some ideas of what it should feel like and I have all of the money group suggestions and notes so I'll keep on that.

If you would surround me in a rainbow and I think of me succeeding then I will receive that as fuel and use it for my nourishment.

I don't know if I can do this. Okay that's not true, I can, I will. First step first. I'm in the cauldron again a (freekin') gain.

I Grow Up Now