I feel better now, my man just gave me a kiss, after I spilled my feelings. In the upcoming week I have time to think, work and take actions. I'm flowing down stream again.

I'm so bleepin' angry.

Again- I'm here at the exact bleepin' place again. I go 'round and 'round and always end up here.

...so I was having a fabulous weekend and spectacular Sunday morning. I was experiencing many serendipitous occurrences and I was quite joyful and then I decided to research a little about the job that I'm applying for this Tuesday.

And It's not my magical, helpful big salaried job with my office and big desk. It's a lower paying under appreciated job. i still want it for a little part time money but again I'm shown that I must do the ding dong entrepreneurial thing. I must stop fighting my life, divine guidance and living less than. AAAACK

I'm so scared. I'm not sure exactly what it is but this week my daughter is in camp from 10-3 so I get some time to think and do. I'm looking forward to it as I do have some ideas of what it should feel like and I have all of the money group suggestions and notes so I'll keep on that.

If you would surround me in a rainbow and I think of me succeeding then I will receive that as fuel and use it for my nourishment.

I don't know if I can do this. Okay that's not true, I can, I will. First step first. I'm in the cauldron again a (freekin') gain.

I Grow Up Now

My friend asked me about my decluttering last night and what was the point. In responding and then sleeping on it I realized that this is the time of Lammas, the first pruning. What I'm am doing then is some pruning, honing in on what I don't what so that what I do want can flourish. It is deciding between the things I want and fine tuning it to what I really want.
When I awoke I also realized that I am to be gentle and patient with myself. I was frustrated because I didn't finish the decuttering in one day. hehehh

Wants: health, spirituality, slowness, presence, love, joy, creativity
Material Wants: a functional and beautiful home ( I think this one is being very helpful in this healing and transitional time) a beautiful and functional car, Grace's tuition paid, travel, and dates with my man, clothes and good toiletries and good food and the means to take care of us all. Honestly, I think it's all happening and I'm grateful and celebratory.

I will allow this in my life as well as for all the people of the planet. As I work toward this I assist others and we will all have our soul's needs and wants met.

MAY WE CELEBRATE THE INCARNATE, 3D PART OF OUR SELVES TODAY.

July 22 Mary Magdalene Day. May we celebrate our humanness, may we enjoy our bodies and the pleasures of the world. Today is a wonderful day to hug your kids and kiss your mate, eat chocolate covered strawberries and swim naked. May we create with Her as an expression of Great Spirit. Give thanks for your beautiful body living this marvelous experience of life.

aaahk. I was writing a very witty and clever blog when it disappeared, now we'll have to settle for this one. I was just saying how I'm really believing that life is a game to be enjoyed. This attitude has made my life much more enjoyable and sparkly. I'm quite delighted by synchronicity, I always feel a tinkling in my being when I realize I have exactly what I want and wanted. Sometimes it looks a little different so I don't recognize it right away. But after I bought a huge bag of oranges from a freeway vendor I remembered I'd been craving oranges and I just hadn't bought them from the market. This purchase was more exciting and they're delicious.
Perhaps I should change the blog name to Silly Goddess. xooxo

Doritos to Paris

A few weeks ago I began the Weight Watchers food plan, not easy but simple. The fact that food costs points is helping me recover from my money issues as well. The feelings I have and the knowledge I'm gaining mirror my experience with the energetics of money. The other day I ate 12 Doritos for 4 pts. I must say that it wasn't worth it, perhaps 1-3 Doritos could have done the trick but I'm not sure. This correlated to the realization that I often spend money where I don't want to spend it but I'm lazy to fix a meal, or I don't feel deserving, sometimes I'm trying to fill the void of not enoughness and the like.

Owning that I'm old enough to be an adult and acting with self-loving, respectful and mature actions I realize that it is not in my best interest to eat everything I want all at once or does it serve my self-love to buy things that I do not want. Time is my friend. I want to create, love and travel and have one beautiful artist's home. I have the power to hone my energy to that which I want.

I don't want Doritos I want Paris.

Money Energetics: Sometimes when we have too much money we don't want to share it because we're afraid we won't get any more, we feel entitled to our money, we worked hard for it etc...Sometimes when we don't have much money we don't want to share it because we're afraid we won't get any more, we feel entitled to being in poverty, we feel we don't have anything to share etc... I've been working with the 10/10/80 principle and I am more generous and prosperous than before. Take the first 10% of any income and donate it, put the second 10% in a prudent reserve and live on the last 80%. If it's too hard at first then start with smaller amounts and work your way toward this goal. You will feel more love and money flowing in and out of your life. I share with you lots of love in this moment.