Mes Amis

Bon matin mes amis. My friends support me in my healthy path. I am so grateful for my amazing women. This past week was pretty rough for me, yet I didn't feel completely alone, I would make a little call here and there to connect, hear the words of wisdom and compassion that my friends have for me and feel held. Compassion is my new key word. Compassion for myself and others is the way I want to live right now. I also realized I don't know very much so I could probably stop trying to think about everything and just be. My heart, minds and guts conncted will help me fulfill my dreams and out of the pain and suffering I create. My mind acting on its own will probably get me into more and more trouble. Let's stay out of that.

Court

The legal proceedings are almost coming to and end. We won the appeals trial, that was a big deal and it's a bittersweet feeling. There is a little bit left to finish up and then that work will be complete. During the entire process I maintained the position that I didn't want to fight, I was standing up for my family and myself. I wasn't working to prove myself right or hurt the other side. I was learning the lessons present and rising up to the challenges presented in the work. I learned a lot about loving completely. I've learned a lot through the process and I'm most grateful for dealing with two of my greatest fears: having my money stolen and having to take care of that and standing up for myself in court and being believed.

Growing up I had a lot stolen from me by my parents and the craziness of my circumstances was believed more than my truth. I am grateful for the appellant-plaintiff for answering Great Spirit's call to be my teacher/healer with these things. I feel more complete and at peace with myself.

 I don't know if there are  winners in court, perhaps everyone loses because it's an archaic system to help people resolve their differences. Perhaps there is a reason why lawyers are called counselors and the work could take off in that direction. Our lawyer is wonderful and we followed the directions, I also sent out love and healing to all involved on a regular basis. May all be blessed and feel the love.

A photo in Montmartre. Spring 2012 in France.

     This trip was months in the planning. Grace's class trip was to France with a couple of days in London, the class teacher, Ms. Anastas had been preparing the class for some time and together we made a spectacular itinerary with Medieval and Gothic sites. The kids were all about 13 years old and great fun. I learned the importance of taking notes or writing in a diary, so that I can personally recall my spiritual growth and document the hilarious mishaps that occur during travel. Travel is fantastic and the process of being with people and working through our things in relationship always fascinates me. This trip fulfilled many small and large wishes. Many things I had been afraid to do, were available for me and I did everything on my wish list. My next wish list is to stay in France for 1-3 months out of the year. The things that need to be done for this to occur are happening and this too will be another wonderful adventure.

L'heure avait sonné. The time had come.

We really must practice self-care and self-love. That's all there is. Yes, it sounds selfish because it is. Let's expand the notion of what selfish is. When we love ourselves first and are happy through and through this happiness shines through us and we are avatars. Listen to who you are within, let your soul guide you to your path of delight and pleasure. This is what you are here to do. This will make your exquisite life on earth. You can do it. You are doing it.

What happened to the discipline of Monday check ins? I was going to write a little hello each Monday, well at least I'm on it today and I have been writing daily so all is well. I had such clever inspirations and now nothing. Perhaps I shall right them down when they come to me.

These holidays have been quite a surprise in that I thought I would be working diligently on my things, instead I have been resting, watching movies, watching "House Hunters", resting with my family and catching up on things that needed to get done. It has been heaven.

Tonight's movie "Heaven Can Wait," I'm looking forward to that one too. I'm reading "Frequency" by Penney Peirce, which has wonderful information in it.

Happy Holidays!

Noticing

Good Morning,

It's another magical day, filled with self-love and awareness and it's just 9:45 am. This self-love business is rather difficult yet it's so important. I'm on my way to living my life the way Great Spirit intended, I see glimpses of it now and then and am grateful for that.

This morning, as I lay cozily in bed before getting up, I started complaining about some things my husband does and in a blessed realization I noted that he is a mirror for me. I too do the same thing, albeit in a different way but the essence is the same. When all is well I get scared and I throw a cog in the wheel, most easily by gaining weight. When all is going well I panic and eat more to stay in my less-than comfort zone.

Fascinating. My answer is to forgive myself and forgive him, then loves us as we both learn what it is to be the best humans. We're trying, perhaps that's part of the problem, I say as I laugh whole heartedly. "

"No! Try not. Do. Or do not. There is no try."

―Yoda to Luke

Happy Birthday

Hello there, The days before my birthday can be tense as I question so much about myself, my life and the meanings in everything. My birthday always ends the stress that's built up by being a day or days filled with love, good friends and kind awareness. This year I awoke to another beautiful day but I actually could see the day because the window washer came and cleaned the windows, this was a little birthday treat that many a Virgo can appreciate. I then cleaned the house and it sparkled, this was followed by my stopping, actually stopping.

I took a little nap and when I awoke decorated the front rooms with silks, Christmas tree stubs, rocks, sparkles and candles. I then read, occasionally I looked out the front window, sipping my rose tea, the CD player played "Songs for Luci," made by my cousin.

Friends came by to deliver beautiful gifts and the gifts of presence and listening. In the evening I watched "Les Miserables" with Geoffrey Rush and cried and cried.

I am so grateful for this enchanted beautiful life.