Winter Solstice, Love and Money

Hello ,

Much love to you on this very special day of new beginnings. Winter is here as is The Golden Age. Much has been churning within me and now I'm really beginning to shine. Some of us are late bloomers and it's a marvelous thing to be hold. I'm not in the winter of my life as I hope I'm stepping in between autumn and winter, yet the spiral of the year has turned into winter and I find that my body follows suit quite easily now.

It's a quieting time when a little light of ideas born shimmers within. What is within is the relationship healing of love and money. The money has really been an amazing teacher and is becoming my friend as I heal my relationship with it. For me money and love have the same energy, they both can flow in and out quite easily if I'm not afraid, let it be and enjoy them. These are two areas that have had my focused attention for healing and I've some along way into the healthy world. I have lived trying to manage and control instead of accepting what is, enjoying the abundance I have and living in the now. I am changing that one moment at a time.

I have a few sayings that I keep playing in my mind, that really help me be positive. "I want my new life more than I want my old life." Regina Richardson  "I'm working more than I'm hoping." Chellie Campbell, "I will succeed because I'm crazy enough to think I can."

In the past few weeks my best days have been the ones in service.

May the learning continue to unfold.

Mes Amis

Bon matin mes amis. My friends support me in my healthy path. I am so grateful for my amazing women. This past week was pretty rough for me, yet I didn't feel completely alone, I would make a little call here and there to connect, hear the words of wisdom and compassion that my friends have for me and feel held. Compassion is my new key word. Compassion for myself and others is the way I want to live right now. I also realized I don't know very much so I could probably stop trying to think about everything and just be. My heart, minds and guts conncted will help me fulfill my dreams and out of the pain and suffering I create. My mind acting on its own will probably get me into more and more trouble. Let's stay out of that.

Court

The legal proceedings are almost coming to and end. We won the appeals trial, that was a big deal and it's a bittersweet feeling. There is a little bit left to finish up and then that work will be complete. During the entire process I maintained the position that I didn't want to fight, I was standing up for my family and myself. I wasn't working to prove myself right or hurt the other side. I was learning the lessons present and rising up to the challenges presented in the work. I learned a lot about loving completely. I've learned a lot through the process and I'm most grateful for dealing with two of my greatest fears: having my money stolen and having to take care of that and standing up for myself in court and being believed.

Growing up I had a lot stolen from me by my parents and the craziness of my circumstances was believed more than my truth. I am grateful for the appellant-plaintiff for answering Great Spirit's call to be my teacher/healer with these things. I feel more complete and at peace with myself.

 I don't know if there are  winners in court, perhaps everyone loses because it's an archaic system to help people resolve their differences. Perhaps there is a reason why lawyers are called counselors and the work could take off in that direction. Our lawyer is wonderful and we followed the directions, I also sent out love and healing to all involved on a regular basis. May all be blessed and feel the love.

A photo in Montmartre. Spring 2012 in France.

     This trip was months in the planning. Grace's class trip was to France with a couple of days in London, the class teacher, Ms. Anastas had been preparing the class for some time and together we made a spectacular itinerary with Medieval and Gothic sites. The kids were all about 13 years old and great fun. I learned the importance of taking notes or writing in a diary, so that I can personally recall my spiritual growth and document the hilarious mishaps that occur during travel. Travel is fantastic and the process of being with people and working through our things in relationship always fascinates me. This trip fulfilled many small and large wishes. Many things I had been afraid to do, were available for me and I did everything on my wish list. My next wish list is to stay in France for 1-3 months out of the year. The things that need to be done for this to occur are happening and this too will be another wonderful adventure.

L'heure avait sonné. The time had come.

We really must practice self-care and self-love. That's all there is. Yes, it sounds selfish because it is. Let's expand the notion of what selfish is. When we love ourselves first and are happy through and through this happiness shines through us and we are avatars. Listen to who you are within, let your soul guide you to your path of delight and pleasure. This is what you are here to do. This will make your exquisite life on earth. You can do it. You are doing it.

What happened to the discipline of Monday check ins? I was going to write a little hello each Monday, well at least I'm on it today and I have been writing daily so all is well. I had such clever inspirations and now nothing. Perhaps I shall right them down when they come to me.

These holidays have been quite a surprise in that I thought I would be working diligently on my things, instead I have been resting, watching movies, watching "House Hunters", resting with my family and catching up on things that needed to get done. It has been heaven.

Tonight's movie "Heaven Can Wait," I'm looking forward to that one too. I'm reading "Frequency" by Penney Peirce, which has wonderful information in it.

Happy Holidays!

Noticing

Good Morning,

It's another magical day, filled with self-love and awareness and it's just 9:45 am. This self-love business is rather difficult yet it's so important. I'm on my way to living my life the way Great Spirit intended, I see glimpses of it now and then and am grateful for that.

This morning, as I lay cozily in bed before getting up, I started complaining about some things my husband does and in a blessed realization I noted that he is a mirror for me. I too do the same thing, albeit in a different way but the essence is the same. When all is well I get scared and I throw a cog in the wheel, most easily by gaining weight. When all is going well I panic and eat more to stay in my less-than comfort zone.

Fascinating. My answer is to forgive myself and forgive him, then loves us as we both learn what it is to be the best humans. We're trying, perhaps that's part of the problem, I say as I laugh whole heartedly. "

"No! Try not. Do. Or do not. There is no try."

―Yoda to Luke

Happy Birthday

Hello there, The days before my birthday can be tense as I question so much about myself, my life and the meanings in everything. My birthday always ends the stress that's built up by being a day or days filled with love, good friends and kind awareness. This year I awoke to another beautiful day but I actually could see the day because the window washer came and cleaned the windows, this was a little birthday treat that many a Virgo can appreciate. I then cleaned the house and it sparkled, this was followed by my stopping, actually stopping.

I took a little nap and when I awoke decorated the front rooms with silks, Christmas tree stubs, rocks, sparkles and candles. I then read, occasionally I looked out the front window, sipping my rose tea, the CD player played "Songs for Luci," made by my cousin.

Friends came by to deliver beautiful gifts and the gifts of presence and listening. In the evening I watched "Les Miserables" with Geoffrey Rush and cried and cried.

I am so grateful for this enchanted beautiful life.

Letting Go Surrendering To The Moment

A friend of mine just asked for help with a difficult situation and the first thing that came to me was to suggest that she let go. After I gave her this advice I realized That these are the words I need right now. there are a few things I want to have happen and they're not going exactly as I would like, when I gave her the suggestion I breathed and surrendered into the present of what is happening and stopped dreaming of the outcomes I want.

Goddess, and all the humans involved are quite clear with my goals are, I have done my footwork and continue to do actions as they are presented to me. The most important thing to do is be here right now. Enjoy this moment writing to you, sitting on this giant exercise ball and breathing. All is well, there's no need to control anything. I love you. Thank you.

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All is well my loves, the more you live in presence being, the better it is.
Creating is good right now.

Memorial Day Remembering

August 7, 1924 - March 5, 2009

Carl Edward Kasemeier II, a man I met only a few times helped to shape this nation and my husband as he was his father and an army service man. His 26 year Army career included duty in the Philippines, Germany, Korea, where he received the Purple Heart medal for combat wounds, and Viet Nam. His other military commendations included the Meritorious Service Medal, Bronze Star, Korea and Viet Nam Presidential Unit Citations, Army Commendation Medal, United Nations Medal, World War II Victory Medal, Combat Infantryman Badge and a number of other service citations. He retired from the Army Infantry as a Lieutenant Colonel in 1969.

There is a sense of loss and confusion in this man that worked so hard to do the right thing and lost himself in his duty. A creative and charming man he also lost himself to right disease and alcohol. A man that provided a good home and many beautiful places for his family to live in and enjoy was appreciated and forgiven.

May all be remembered in love and appreciation.

Romancing The Money

"Nothing likes to be chased" Graciela Schneider. My mom was telling me the importance of wooing things. I've come to realize this includes money as well as life. They want to be charmed and enchanted just like everything else. I've been realizing that the way we treat ourselves and then our partner/lover/spouse is the way we treat and live with money and our lives.
Money and love have the same energetic frequency. It's just about giving and receiving who we are freely and easily. Are we wooing life and enjoying her company or are we constantly complaining and demanding that she behave in a certain way that meets our controlling and controlled expectations? Are we the Goddess Aphrodite loving, giving and receiving, are we Diana working with nature or are we stalking our lives and demanding that she do as we please? I'm taking full and complete responsibility for myself. Everything that is in my life is by the magic of my soul's desire. Sometimes I don't understand it, always it is fascinating and entertaining. I am present for my life and taking the actions I must do as they are presented to me. How I walk and breathe in the world is just that. There this no other if I'm blaming another for my reactions or circumstance I rob myself of the opportunity to live my life to the fullest.

Yes. I am Goddess Unfolding

Hello Again,

I just finished reading Chris Gullebeau's book "The Art of Non-Conformity" and it's fantastic. He suggests blogging regularly if we are blogging, so I've picked Mondays as I my blog in day. The consistency factor alone will help me and you because what I'm sharing is valuable to those that seek it. "The Magdalene Awakening" by L. Shannon Andersen was suggested to me by a very dear friend. There is much information in the book that is helpful and accurate, I'm especially enjoying recognizing synchronicity and messages that pop into my day.

Yesterday the term Holy Grail popped into my day at least 8 times, which I found delightful and insightful. I remembered that Mary Magdalene is the Holy Grail and many of us are bringing her message out into this time. I owned that this is part of my work and it might call you s well. If words like Cathar, France, Frankincense and Myrrh, Mary Magdalene and Goddess resonate with you then take this moment to breathe, love yourself and research a couple of these things together and see what you discover. Have Fun.

Life is Amazing

As many times as that has been said it's still true. When one plants a little thought, then takes care of it as a gardner does her seedlings, that thought flourishes and takes a 3D form outside of our minds. That's why dreams can and do come true. What's working for me is the connection between Spirit, resting, listening , action and the dance between them. It's not the achievement of the goal that is desired because once we have it we always want something else. The goal is an inspiration for the journey that makes for the adventure of life. I'm finally beginning to settle into the process, the journey.

consistently: constantly adhering to the same course

It has been awhile since I wrote a little something, that is why I chose the wrod consistently as my title. I will be writing consistently. If one doesn't write then they are not a writer but more of a dreamer. I have a lot of little actions I'm taking on a daily basis because my dreams will come true faster if I spend some minutes on things instead of no minutes. I'm keeping a journal of where I spend my time at the end of two weeks I tally it up and allocate time to the appropriate places, it sounds like a good idea, I hope it helps with the frivolous time spending.

Of course I'm also wanting to end frivolous money spending as well. Actually I spend a lot of money on food so I shall learn to become a better cook and spend my money in food luxury. I love those words luxury and luxurious and hope to have a life filled with them. I think it's a luxury to have the time to write these silly musings. I'm thinking of Jane Austen's vocabulary within her musings and know I aspire to have a much greater fluidity with vocabulary.

I have a mentor that speaks many languages. She's a poet and lives like one too as I continue with this prolific de-cluttering space emerges to live life poetically. May I be able to speak three languages and use them often. Thank You

Love Is All There Is

Loving myself by strengthening my connection with Great Spirit. When we do what we're supposed to be doing it all works out so well. How do we know what that is? By listening. Self referral and a connection with Great Spirit will always guide us in the direction that's best for us. It takes a lot of strength and courage to follow the directions. Risking the disapproval of others is another part of the equation, after listening then how do we say no to others and yes to ourselves? Ah, yes, the famous "Just Do It" slogan comes to mind. I've been doing it more and more and the quality of my life is improving. I have mush less stuff as I continue to de-clutter but I have a more solid base. Yesterday I read in Tracey McBride's book Frugal Luxuries that it's important to say no to ourselves and I loved that because the concept crystalized for me. To live in truth with oneself one must know how to say no like a loving parent. No to this means I can say yes to that and I'll have energy for the yeses that will be for my highest good. It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm thrilled, I love birthdays, especially mine. Thank You

It appears that I must do what I know is right. Yesterday, I became very angry and immature because the job I'm applying for this Tuesday isn't the dream job I thought it would be. And again I'm in the place of living my life the way I know is right.

Apparently I can't give myself this full freedom but I can give myself this birthday gift for one year.

Starting today I live life in the present.
I use the tools I have to live in love, pleasure and joy.

This is my life and I deserve it.

YIPEEE!!!!!!!

I feel better now, my man just gave me a kiss, after I spilled my feelings. In the upcoming week I have time to think, work and take actions. I'm flowing down stream again.

I'm so bleepin' angry.

Again- I'm here at the exact bleepin' place again. I go 'round and 'round and always end up here.

...so I was having a fabulous weekend and spectacular Sunday morning. I was experiencing many serendipitous occurrences and I was quite joyful and then I decided to research a little about the job that I'm applying for this Tuesday.

And It's not my magical, helpful big salaried job with my office and big desk. It's a lower paying under appreciated job. i still want it for a little part time money but again I'm shown that I must do the ding dong entrepreneurial thing. I must stop fighting my life, divine guidance and living less than. AAAACK

I'm so scared. I'm not sure exactly what it is but this week my daughter is in camp from 10-3 so I get some time to think and do. I'm looking forward to it as I do have some ideas of what it should feel like and I have all of the money group suggestions and notes so I'll keep on that.

If you would surround me in a rainbow and I think of me succeeding then I will receive that as fuel and use it for my nourishment.

I don't know if I can do this. Okay that's not true, I can, I will. First step first. I'm in the cauldron again a (freekin') gain.

I Grow Up Now

My friend asked me about my decluttering last night and what was the point. In responding and then sleeping on it I realized that this is the time of Lammas, the first pruning. What I'm am doing then is some pruning, honing in on what I don't what so that what I do want can flourish. It is deciding between the things I want and fine tuning it to what I really want.
When I awoke I also realized that I am to be gentle and patient with myself. I was frustrated because I didn't finish the decuttering in one day. hehehh

Wants: health, spirituality, slowness, presence, love, joy, creativity
Material Wants: a functional and beautiful home ( I think this one is being very helpful in this healing and transitional time) a beautiful and functional car, Grace's tuition paid, travel, and dates with my man, clothes and good toiletries and good food and the means to take care of us all. Honestly, I think it's all happening and I'm grateful and celebratory.

I will allow this in my life as well as for all the people of the planet. As I work toward this I assist others and we will all have our soul's needs and wants met.

MAY WE CELEBRATE THE INCARNATE, 3D PART OF OUR SELVES TODAY.